I need cleansing. I am feeling defeated with yoyo effects. I feel like my Christian Walk and my daily life have clashed and aren’t rewarding. I have prayed, sent talks to God, continued attending church, joined in ministry and groups, and I seem to get a response from God. However, I often receive a reaction or a decision that tears me down and makes me question where God is in my life. I cry and pray, and I have no relief. I ask for Bishop to pray over my life and the Ministerial crew so that I can get an understanding of what’s happening to me and God’s will for my life. I am the common denominator in so many things and failed relationships. Men, family, work, and children. Is it me, or is it my Christian Walk, or God? I’m lost. I’m struggling to figure it out, and it’s getting me down.